Torn

While I understand that love finds you when you least expect it, I can't help but be both angry and happy for him at the same time. It just makes me upset when I hear about the ways he acts and it makes me wonder why he acts the way he does. The "I'm happy if you're happy" mentality isn't always easy to maintain, especially when it deals with two different people you care about. I feel like I'm a horrible friend and dongsaeng for being this way ><