As time goes on, you'll understand

What lasts, lasts; what doesn't, doesn't. Time solves most things. And what time can't solve, you have to solve yourself. — Haruki Murakami

My heart's feeling a little lighter these days, the thoughts in my head less jumbled.  I've begun self-testing and unlike my previous attempts, I've appeared to be calmer and more rational in the process.  It's too soon to tell if this will last but I'm taking it one step at a time, facing my fears head-on, holding my breath and hoping for the best.